Helplessness

We all live in helplessness and utter dependency, and I usually don't let it get me down. The keen edge of it comes, not when you realize that you can't control or determine events in your own life, but when you see this same contingency play out in the lives of those you love. I want so much to fix it for them, to make it come out right, (to be God). I don't want them to have to worry or struggle or hurt through it: and I can't preach patience that I don't have, for situations much harder than my own. That is helplessness.